AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....
Why is it so hard starting conversations with people you want to express your feelings to but can't because you're scared or nervous.........
I think I'm scared of how they would react or how they would judge me...
or not feeling embarrassed...
I guess I'm still struggling with caring about what other people think...
Where is my worth?
I was listening to music, watching tv shows (specifically Fear Factor) and Youtube for the past few days while I was driving or crocheting.
Now I crave having some sort of sound or show playing in the background.
It's really hard to not have your mind hardwired to need these things...how long will it take to get rid of an addiction?
I went to run again after 1.5 weeks of not running. It was really tiring. I had some trouble breathing in the beginning but I think it helped me clear my trachea from the flem that built up in my throat when I was sick.
I ran to the grocery store to get cilantro and ran home. It felt really weird holding something in your hand while running. The weight was off a bit.
I also ran in my old running shoes today. It felt more natural to run in it compared to the Novablasts...more secure on my feet. Definitely less bounce though.
I am in the position I am in because God has put me where I am. He has given me what I have.
Daniel 3-4
It is not hard work. It is not my leadership. I cannot boast in anyone or anything.
It is only by God. There is no one greater than God.
Is there any point to moving out...?
I want to learn how to be more responsible...but there's no point in buying a place right now...
